Thoughts of you float forward sitting in stillness walking in silence laying in darkness. How we were intimately intertwined: You, present in my life’s major movements. How I fit comfortably in your family community. Memories drift by as clouds gather in the sky. When you brought me back to life. How I brought laughter to yours. or at least I thought I had. Questions hang heavy. Was it really my many imperfections? Or your fear of abandonment? Had we changed that much? Or was